I am alive. Coping with the hiatus hernia
. Perhaps in a one damned thing after another sort of way. Still, the symptoms have all improved dramatically since I started eating much smaller meals and stopping before I feel full.
Now if my chronic fatigue and pain would kindly sod off, I'd be a lot happier. My legs have been useless for weeks now and I need to talk to my doctor about medication. My left knee in particular hurts if I rest, hurts if I walk, hurts if I stretch, hurts if I sit. Frankly, I can't figure out what doesn't
aggravate the bloody thing.
It has been a dreadful year all round. Not least of all politically - as Richard pointed out today, when did the language of the far right become the ordinary way to describe things? And that's even without all the normal stresses of being a queer disabled woman that were already present before politics veered horrendously over to Farageland and Trumpsville.
Most of the good things that have happened this year have involved music, travel, or my partners. Sometimes at the same time. I haven't been well enough to travel much, but Grant came here in February
, all 3 of us went to Boston in May
to see Freezepop, Richard & I went to the Download Festival in June
(and got thoroughly rained on), and I went to see Grant at his new home in Rochester, NY in September. We also saw ext_890197
, for the first time since I went to Boston to pick up wedding rings
. I haven't written anything in livejournal about visiting Grant because it was quite honestly the only week in the past six months that I was not
completely exhausted and ill. (Also, it was a 12-day trip including travel, so that gives you some idea of the health).
Richard is now in several bands, including one called Amps at Eleven. (There is a heavy metal umlaut on one of the Es, but I can't remember which one). They have actually done gigs recently, which is more than his other two bands are likely to ever accomplish. I sent text messages to everyone who I thought might like a classic rock covers band and be conceivably able to get to Raynes Park on a Tuesday night, but in the end only pilot_moondog
came. Still, it was good to see Shaun.
I need to make a list of all the gigs I have been to this year. It seems like the only time I ever leave the house is for (a) a medical appointment, (b) to buy cake
, (c) to see a band. It's crazy how many people who live in London I haven't seen in 3+ years. I miss having a fuller life. Doing something other than sitting up at night playing Elder Scrolls Online.
Don't get me wrong. I love my ESO Guild and my friends from our Teamspeak. But I'd like it to be A thing that I do rather than THE thing that I do. One of several ways that I hang out with friends, rather than the only one.
Who's still on livejournal? Am I going to be forced to start a Facebook account just so that I can still talk to people?