the desire for pizza

Feeling quite calm at the moment. Earlier today I was very very unhappy and stressed, but I'm a lot more relaxed now. Just got some bread out of the freezer for me to eat later, and planning a trip to the supermarket tomorrow. As well as getting the dairy-free chocolate ice cream (if they have any in yet) I'm going to buy strong flour and yeast to make pizza dough.

Not a very interesting lj entry for you to read, but I'm allowed to post occasionally when I'm not having a health crisis or outbreak of surreality! If you want to read about yesterday's pizza crisis, it's here under the cut tag. ( I wrote this yesterday when my journal was in read-only mode )

caprice

Whee - I was going to write this after the Wildhearts gig of a couple of weeks ago (Friday 18th July, if you care), but didn't get round to it because I went down with a horrible cold. Which I still have. Got a peak flow meter from the doctor today and my peak flow is averaging 380 L/min - usually it's 440, and it should be 460 for someone of my size and age. No wonder I'm tired and feel that my lungs are full of crap.

Oh my God! I just found a love letter in my drawer whilst looking for some stuff! A 4 year old love letter, for a net romance that never made it into real life - but reading it now and I go through all those feelings of excitement and butterflies in the tummy all over again. I was so obsessed with him - he's the person that this and this on my alternate personal site are about. Oh, weird.

Anyway, perkiness:

Head inside a rut - it's like my mind is shut
I hope I cope this time
Drink and drugs will only amplify
I've still got my music, so let's give that a try
Sounds that can soothe ya
Sounds that can move you and improve you, child
Caprice

Help me see this pain doesn't matter, I'm fine
No one gets me, I don't get me, no one gets me, I don't get me
I just need a little time
Head inside a rut, the mental link is cut
I'm holding on for life

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