I am pissed off and want to cry, again.

The GP I saw at college turns out to have been even more crap than I'd previously suspected. Damnit. Just damnit.

There aren't any words for finding out that you've been suffering for a long time for... no reason. I've said for a few months now that I'm sure all my problems are caused by one thing. I'm not wedded to the idea that I have ME, it's just a suggestion - but it does seem to me a lot more likely that I have one illness that's causing all my symptoms, rather than 10 different illnesses. And if I'd known 6 or 7 years ago that I had something that could potentially get worse rather than stay the same or get better, I would have made some very different choices.

macabre humour

Some people think that I am a hypochondriac, but I'm not. A hypochrondiac is someone who rushes to the doctor every other day to say "I think my leg's going to fall off!". A chronically ill person is someone who'll hop to an appointment on the leg that's still there, and when asked about it will be surprised, because it didn't seem important compared to some of the other problems.

I'm sure this analogy worked much better when I said it out loud. Ah well.

( Blethering… )

I was highly amused on my travels through the internet to find the advice "When consulting your doctor, try to mention only your top 10 symptoms at the moment." I was also extremely amused by the following quotes from the ID Agora:
Unlike Terminal Illness which threatens to kill the patient, M.E. threatens to not kill the patient. -- David Kelso
Doctors think a lot of patients are cured who have simply given up in disgust. -- Don Herold

These ones are just too true to be funny:
Most people who live with a chronic illness will tell you that relapses are made much worse by the fact that they follow temporary remissions, when we think, with the eternal optimism of well-being, that we have escaped the clutches of pain for good. -- Kat Duff, 'The Alchemy of Illness'

There are now so many laboratory tests available, that some doctors may interpret 'absence of evidence' as 'evidence of absence'. -- L Hartnell

mmm, delicious soymilk

Guess which product I was asking questions about today? Yes indeed, the highlight of my day was a co-worker having a seizure by the coffee machine. I'm assuming she's actually epileptic, because she got carted out of the office on a stretcher by 4(!) paramedics, then walked back in about 15 minutes later. I've been told by people who should know that if you're on anticonvulsants already, it's a PITA to be dragged off to hospital and poked and prodded when there's nothing really wrong, just you didn't get enough sleep or forgot a pill. It was still odd, though.

In completely random news, we too have received a Christmas card this week. Ours was from inquis and barty. I really want to know when they posted it, as it was postmarked 5 Feb, but the FEB was suspiciously much bolder than the rest of the postmark.

I have stopped being pissed off at my ex-doctor because it was taking too much energy, so now I'm just tired. release82 says my moods change too often, so there's my explanation ;) Going to bed soon.