I am very stressed.

[baratron]

Remember I said back in June that I'd been referred for cognitive behavioural therapy? I've got the assessment appointment tomorrow. And I am stupidly stressed about it.

I'm not stressed so much for the reasons I gave before. I'm stressed because I forgot all about the appointment until an hour or so ago. Now, it's currently 3.20am on Monday 7th October, and my appointment is at 10.45am on Monday 7th October - so I remembered in plenty of time, what's the problem? Well, I can't stop thinking about what would have happened if I had forgotten completely - can't stop running futuristic time progressions in my head. The letter I got from the psychology department says, in big, bold letters: Should you choose not to attend an allocated appointment without letting us know, we will close your file. I can't stop obsessing with those words and calm down, accept the fact that I did remember in time and forget about it.

It is worth my pointing out that this inability to let things go is at least 33% of the reason why I need cognitive therapy :/

Comments

[nitoda]

I really hope it all goes well for you!

HUGS!

[hiddenpaw.livejournal.com]

They say there are an infinite number of universes where an infinite number of possibilitiys are played out. I'm not sure if I really buy this but, if it's truethat means for every thing you could have done but didn't there is an HL out there some place that did and is worrying about it. Since they are handling all the worrying about what could have been you really don't have to...Unless you really want to that is, but I tend to find that depressing.

Good luck at the doc's
*Huggs*