On another topic completely...

[baratron]

I'm extremely amused by the answers to my moaning poll. There is a strong correlation between the people who have chronic illnesses thinking I don't moan very much, and the healthy people thinking I moan all the time ;) Oh, sure, some healthy people think I don't moan very much, but they're all the ones who have close friends with long-term illness, so presumably they've acquired some empathy from them. Or maybe I just moan less than their other friends with similar problems ;)

Comments

[baratron.livejournal.com]

Also, re (1), I think you missed the self-deprecating irony of my original post. It was meant very much in a "God, I'm so stupid!" sense. If I have gone out of my way to avoid a particular establishment for 2 entire years, that is not breaking a self-imposed rule of abstinence "whenever I feel hungry": I did it once when I was starving and exhausted - the point of my post being what a mistake that was, and I should boil my head in oil for it, except I didn't need to because I'd already received my punishment in the form of the "food".

Okay, "starving" is an overstatement - I wasn't in danger of dying if I didn't eat, I was just extremely and uncomfortably hungry - but "exhausted" is literally true. I was so tired that I couldn't easily walk outside the station, and so emotionally exhausted that I couldn't bear to sit in a restaurant by myself (there are a number of quite good cheap places within 10 minutes of the station, but none of them do takeaway). I'm so tired when I do anything like go to work that I come home and collapse - on a good day, in front of the computer, and on a bad day, in the bed (though I can't sleep because of the pain). I had forgotten in the past few years when my medical stuff has been mainly mental just how bad the pain and tiredness is when it wants to get going, and didn't have any suitable coping strategies in place on that particular occasion. I meant my post to be blackly humorous, not whiny, and I'm sorry that you saw it that way. I suspect if you spent more time with me in real life, you would know my speech patterns which come out in my livejournal, and realise how I meant it - nonetheless, your response is useful to me on the basis that I do have close friends that I interact with only online.