bad-tempered & not-coping

[baratron]

I am feeling lonely and broken and my gall bladder is twingeing. Stupid fucking thing - has it not eaten enough of my life already? I feel depressed. I'm not even sure why - I can't pull out & identify any actual negative thoughts. There's just a big grey cloud sitting gloomily at the back of my head making nagging sadness, and I can't really concentrate on anything.

My gall bladder just has to stay stable for 2 more weeks, that's all. My hospital appointment is on 6th October. That isn't long. I just have to keep taking the painkillers whether I think I need them or not, and take it even more easy than I have been (does that make grammatical sense?!). Stop worrying about work & the students & housework - my own health has to take priority.

But it's awfully difficult when I get back from hospital and find that Richard's been coping so badly that the house is the same fucking tip that it was before I went in, only with an extra week's worth of detritus. Surely I am not the only person in this house who can load up the washing machine or dishwasher or run a vacuum cleaner around the place?

I don't really know what I'm getting at here.

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[quiet000001.livejournal.com]

i dunno, but i'm feeling down for the same reason- except in my case it was guests who came to stay and said they'd help out and didn't and I understand being tired and I wasn't very pushy about them helping because I haven't been feeling the energy to be pushy, but dude. I have, like, no clean dishes! The kitchen is a pit! I still haven't properly unpacked from my US trip. ARGH.

Domestic burdens

[ailbhe]

Um. Has anyone ever taught Richard to see that this stuff needs to be done? Because Rob needed to be specifically taught to see that it needed to be done - he wouldn't even *notice* that there were no clean dishes until he went to use one, and even then it wouldn't occur to him that now would be a good time to wash all the dishes, rather than the one he wanted to use.

He is learning now. I had to play the sexism card, though.

[elfgeek.livejournal.com]

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you & your gallbladder and hope you can manage your pain well until then.

[judiff]

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