Not coping

[baratron]

I am very, very stressed.

My husband is being sent to Canada next week and we still don't know when. It's "only" 3 or 4 days, but he is my full-time carer, and it's hard for me to manage without him.

And after I sent a slightly passive-aggressive letter to the Pain Management Clinic at Kingston Hospital, they phoned me at 8.30 this morning to say they'd completely run out of capacity, but I could go to Queen Mary's in Roehampton to get my back fixed. Kingston Hospital is 10 minutes walk from my house, whereas Queen Mary's is 25 minutes on a bus. The appointment is for 1.30pm on Saturday 18th January.

I am now having a minor panic attack because I have a really bad hospital phobia, so it is extremely non-trivial for me to go somewhere that I don't know. Also, what I'm having done to my back counts as "surgery", which is freaking me out even more.

Also, I have had period pain FROM HELL for 3 days, which is also reducing my ability to cope. I am also about 2 months behind with my academic work, since I have been too ill to think since 3rd December. I thought I'd be well enough to get going on Tuesday, then the period pain started, meaning I've had to dope myself up to the eyeballs (and STILL HURT).

Fortunately, I am seeing my Disability Mentor (a.k.a. mental health professional) tomorrow. Nonetheless, I could do with expressions of sympathy, and offers of people to help me out with finding food next week.

Comments

[hobbitbabe.livejournal.com]

Oh boy no wonder you're stressed. I can't think of anything useful to do to help you with food, but I am definitely expressing sympathy.

It must be extra frustrating not to know when Richard is going to be away, so you can't even get people organized to look in and run errands and such. I hope your disability mentor person is useful and comforting.

I'm always glad when you have enough spoons to post.

[redbird]

Much sympathy; I don't think I can do much practical from 7000 km away.

[veryfineredwine.livejournal.com]

::hugs::

[kshandra]

Absolutely on the wrong continent to provide you anything other than sympathy, but you've got all of that I can give you. <3

[mongoose-bite.livejournal.com]

That really sucks. /hugs

I can't do much, but if I'm around you can always ping me and I'll try and be distracting if you need it.

[jinian.livejournal.com]

Poor! Hope the period pain goes away soonest and everything else becomes more manageable.

[nitoda]

Ouch! We're back on 11th. Might be able to do helpful stuff - email me what you need when and I'll see what I can do. HUGS!

[ailbhe]

Oh how horrible. I *hate* the lack of consideration work-travel has for the rest of one's life, especially other people. I can't do anything to help but you have all my sympathy.

[firecat]

Lots of sympathy.

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

I don't blame you for being stressed out, that's a lot to deal with. *hugs*