"and the house of cards came crashing down"

[baratron]

My f key is broken. It went "ping", and I think I saw something go flying out of it. But I can't find whatever it was, and the key is now permanently stuck down. I am typing fs thanks to Windows' cut & paste. Admittedly this keyboard cost about £2.50, and the laptop's own keyboard is fine, so it is not a horrendous situation. Just that, as with all broken keyboards, you never realise how much you use a letter until you can't. How philosophical.

Less depressed now. On Monday night, I posted at 1.30am about how miserable I was & no one loves me & waaah and two people promptly picked up the phone and called me. Just the fact that people remembered that you can call me anytime - if my mobile's on, I'm awake & vice versa - and thought to try calling was enough to make the whole delusional house of cards that I'd been constructing come crashing down. It's difficult to rationalise that everyone's sick of talking to you when you have clear evidence to the contrary. In depression, I forget how damn lucky I am to have the friends and partners that I do.

Talking of which, here is some NAKED GIRLFRIEND ART. That is art of the naked girlfriend, not by her, btw. Work-safe in as much as naked people are (i.e. if your work frowns on nakedness even in the arty sense, don't look while you're there) :)

I am excited by the plans that I have for the weekend. I hope they work out.

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[quiet000001.livejournal.com]

sorry I didn't call/leave my number, too. As mentioned, there was much PhoneFear, exacerbated by the fact that I've been running at high-anxiety for much of the last week debating the Greece thing.

[baratron.livejournal.com]

It's ok - the comments helped as well :) After I talked to a couple of people, I realised I was exhausted and needed to go to bed.

[epi-lj.livejournal.com]

There was one time when my keyboard broke entirely due to a massive influx of the beverage I was drinking at the time, while I was on IRC. It went *entirely* dead. Just as a sort of exercise in excess, I continued to chat for most of the evening by using Character Map to type with the mouse and then copy/paste that into the IRC window. I then opened a text file in notepad and copied a carriage return, so I could paste that in to the end of the sentence. It was kind of fun, and I actually got fairly speedy (relatively speaking) by the end of the evening. ;)