So this is 2002?

[baratron]

Ugh, depression.

Earlier this week I thought my circadian rhythms were getting messed up again, but now I think it's plain old depression-masquerading-as-exhaustion. I went to bed at 8pm on Tuesday and got up at 3.40pm on Wednesday - I couldn't possibly have been tired enough to need that amount of sleep. My concentration span is back to goldfish level, and my appetite's practically non-existent. I keep not fancying food at all until I'm freezing or almost fainting, and then feeling too nauseous to eat. I'm sure I have some other symptoms too, but I can't remember them (see previous comment about goldfish).

I thought I was done with this depression thing. I got a job, made concrete plans to finish my course and lowered my antidepressant dosage. Now I'm thinking about going back to the higher level. Rant, rant, rant. Angst, angst, angst. I'll try not too get too seriously angsty - to be honest, sometimes just starting a rant is enough to make me feel better. I've just cheered myself up by noticing the irony that it's 6.30am and I'm eating fried rice and edamame from the other day. Mmmm, boiled green hairy beans dipped in salt - just perfect for breakfast!

And sometime in the next couple of hours, some nice men from Ikea are going to turn up with the new furniture we've bought. A smart tv stand to accommodate our growing collection of video equipment and games consoles, a set of drawers to store Richard's electronics projects in so they don't take over the dining table, and some picture frames we couldn't face carrying home on the tram. Nice!

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[elfgeek.livejournal.com]

Just wanted to say hi & I'm not sure if you wanted anyone to comment on this but I sympathise with the f*cked-up sleep patterns, I get those quite a lot too. Nice job about the new furniture, a media showcase is always a good idea.

[baratron.livejournal.com]

I didn't know you were reading my journal. Hi! I've added you as a friend.

[elfgeek.livejournal.com]

oh cool, thanks!

*seeble*

[kshandra]

I keep not fancying food at all until I'm freezing or almost fainting, and then feeling too nauseous to eat.

With me, it's as much not wanting to go to the effort of fixing what I do want as it is not wanting anything.

And while I'm here...your wintercard was in the mail when we got home last night. Just darling. Thanks.

[damerell.livejournal.com]

You can never have too much video equipment or too many games consoles. Trust me.

[lovelygenerator.livejournal.com]

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[baratron.livejournal.com]

No probs. Would you like to email me - that would probably work better than trying to hold a conversation through livejournal comments! baratron@livejournal.com should work.

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